This song is me so very often, as soon as I get closer to the Lord, I get frightened and start pushing. I know that He will just wait for me to come back. It is hard when you feel so much love all at once when you’ve never experienced that in real life, not to push it away. In my heart lies the desire to do mission work when the Peanut goes to college. Only 13 more years…..I’m praying now for a way to fulfill that dream.