I know that I said I wouldn’t talk about what was going on but I can’t keep this in any more as it hurts too much. My ex husband was indicted on 62 counts of child pornography. The week after they arrested him I got temporary custody of my girls Jasmine and Kendra. I have a court date on Nov. 20 to see if I get to keep them. Below is what the lawyer said to me at today’s meeting. I have no hope of keeping them and it is like losing them all over again and I just don’t know if I can do it again.
I went to see the attorney today and he wants the girls or at least Jasmine to testify but when I spoke to Jasmine she said no. I will probably lose next thursday and Kendra will return back to a man charged with child pornography. Jasmine doens’t care what happens to Kendra because she is safe at Renee’s. She thinks that Gratus will give Renee custody of her but he won’t, he told me so many times.
I hurt, and while it is not the first time I’ve tried to get my kids from him and lost, it hurts just as bad, one would think I would be immune to the pain but I’m not and probably never will be.
All I can do is pray that Renee can get Jasmine to change her mind or that he will eventually go to jail and that will solve the problem of custody.
After thursday is over I will once again have to heal a broken heart and put my life back together without my daughters.
It never stops, this pain of not being able to save them. A friend told me she felt sorry for me, most of the time I don’t feel sorry for myself but tonight I do.
My kids are trainwrecks that have crashed or are on a collison course and that is so hard for me to see. All because of a insane man, who has no morals and has manipulated, lied and hurt me and my kids.
Now my kids have no morals and that hurts almost as much.
On a brighter note they busted 41 more people for child pornography here and probably got some of the evidence from the ex’s computer.