There once was a girl named Michielle,
Her name didn’t ring her bell
Frankly, she said it just smells
She said I can change my name.
Now the girl has no name
That’s a terrible shame
Her mother is to blame
For the name Michielle was lame.
So she thought of new name’s
She said Sue, Mary, Terri……I don’t think so.
Ann, Fran, Sam……no way
Then she said what about Rose
I think that will fit me just fine
So she toasted her name with a glass of wine.
Now that E**** name has to go too!
I’ll take it and leave it at the zoo
An Irish-Scottish name will do
It must be fresh as the morning dew
She said M****** will do
So off to court she flew
So she told the court her new name
Rose Catriona M****** it is to be.
The Judge said $111 dollars is the fee.
She paid it with much glee
and went to get a sweet tea.
So I give you Rose Catriona M******
Now the girl has a new name
Don’t stand in her way
She’s on her way to achieve fame.
After all that is said she is still the same
Smart and beautiful as her new name!!
Love,
Tommy
The ex’s court date is again moved back!!! I’m so tired of being up in the air with this whole thing. I’m also dealing with being very angry, which hasn’t happened to me in quite a while. So I now have to wait until the week of July 20 to see what happens. More than another month!!!
On a brighter note, my name change hearing is tomorrow and I’m so excited!!! I’m doing ok with my history class as well, not as good as I want but I have an A, just not the 98% I prefer, but at a 93% I’ll take it. I”m having a bit of trouble focusing since I’m a bit over tired ans definitely over stressed. But soon it will all be over and I can hold on until then. With God’s grace anyway.
We have been so busy lately. Things are going fairly smoothly with Jasmine. Although her father filed a motion to end the protection order so we have a court date this coming friday. He thinks he can get them back since I had Jasmine in the hospital. He is really warped if he thinks that getting her help makes me unfit as a mom. We had a chiro visit last friday and I’m finally feeling better from the accident.
Life is good, just busy and I’m not liking busy much at the moment. There is never anytime to ponder things just action. My history class is ok, just a lot of work but I love ancient history so that is a plus. There are a lot of interesting people in the class. The refresher is nice since we are back to ancient history with the kids in the fall, making my life so much easier in at least one subject for homeschooling.
I finally bought a new keyboard and mouse. They are wireless and that is really nice right now. I also had to do some computer stuff. It was running really slow so I ran my tech tool software and it seems to have fixed that problem but it took quite a while and then I had to reinstall some things. But it is now functioning nicely.
We planted our garden yesterday, tomato’s, green beans, peas, cilantro, basil and carrots, I need to get some peppers, and cucumbers still. We added a border to it. Hoping to keep the boys from cutting through it when playing. We are tearing out the ugly shrubs that border our yard from the neighbors. We asked them yesterday if they minded and she was so happy to hear we wanted to take them out!! So that is our yard project today. We want to add a border to the front beds and then just plant some pansies to make it look presentable.
The boys have become addicted to Farm Town on my facebook account. They are learning quite a bit there and having fun. Summer craziness starts in two weeks. Noah and Kendra go to camp, swim lessons and swim team start. As well as VBS, I’m working crafts this year. That ought to be fun. I’m also teaching Noah how to knit, because don’t you know that real men knit?Not really but he wants to learn and it will be good for him. Then I must teach the Princess.
Well, I would love to spend more time here with you but duty beckons as does a shower. Have a great week.
I managed to get all A’s!!! I’m so happy!!! God has truly blessed me with wonderful professors that have brought out the best in me. I will admit that it was a very hard semester for me and I had thoughts of quitting but now, I feel like I can do this and survive. Although, it really is God making all this possible, not me. I’m just trying to be faithful and do what I feel He is leading me to do.
I’m so tired of stress and drama!!! The 16 yr old is not taking her meds, wanting to kill Renee’ finace. (she was living with Renee). Now I get to deal with her. I picked up her stuff tonight while she was at work. Kendra has been staying at the older daughters as well to help out and I told her she has to come home now too and boy is she sad. I let her spend the night and asked Renee to talk to her. I’m so angry right now. Angry at the ex for messing up their lives, angry that he brainwashed them into thinking I don’t want them, or love them, and that I was never there for them, etc, etc. They don’t seem to realize just how much I was there for them. I went to most of their school things, picked them up every weds and friday night. kept them all summer and almost every day they had no school for years. But of course I didn’t do anything for them. They only want me for want they want me to do for them, not because they love me or I love them. I wish this was just teenage stuff but I know it is not, they are so angry for the divorce because I’ve never said anything to them abut how their dad treated me and he just went to town ranting and raving like a lunatic for years. If he goes to prison, we get stuck with teenagers that have never had any rules and alway been given what they want. Can I just say this is a horrid situation and that it stinks?
On a brighter note I got an A in physical anthropology, probably missed an A by 6.6 points in math, and am still waiting for word on my final draft of my literature review paper. I’m working on a settlement for my van that was sideswiped. I will be seeing my chiro, getting a rental and my van fixed at some point and hopefully get a few $$ out of it. Which will be a God send right now. The husband’s glasses are old and he lost one of the lenses last week at work. But he doesn’t qualify for a new pair under insurance until Oct. He needs bi-focal’s so that will be pricey. We also need a futon for the 16 yr old to sleep on. I’m hoping that she doesn’t blow up too much. I really can’t handle it right now.
I have already called my Pastor and told him I need to see him next week. He doesn’t know why but he will. He might have to serve jury duty though so I have to wait until I find out what the deal is with that. He said to call him monday night and see if he managed to get out of it.
We have been cleaning alot today to get ready for the onslaught, and because I can’t stand it anymore. Tomorrow the teen and the Princess both have dr. appointments. One at 10am the other at 11:15 in two different cities. That ought to be fun with only one car. I will probably drop off the husband and the princess, then run to get the teen out of school, go pick up the husband and princess then run to the teen’s appointment. Then get the teen back to school and then the husband can go do his magazine job. I know that the Lord will get me through this but right now I’m so overwhelmed, angry and discouraged. I’m tired of paying for other’s people’s sins. It is not my fault that nobody believed me years ago when I tried to tell them, it is not my fault that the ex is charged with 62 felonies. I didn’t do it, he did. I would never have let my kids run wild like he did. Now, I will have to deal with his poor parenting.
I think I will end this and go do something, although I have no idea what.
My paper that is. I’m so relieved. I will turn it in on Tuesday. She liked the rough draft so hopefully this will be even better.
I’m so hoping for an A since I really worked hard on this project. I learned a great deal both about writing in APA style and the affects of physical child abuse upon the child, teen and adult in all of the realms: physical, emotional, cognitive, neurological and behavioral. It was more creative than I thought it would be and I really enjoyed doing it although it did drive me crazy at times.
I’m waiting to see how i did on my finals, I really studied for them and hope I did well. I know I’m really close to an A in both classes but have no idea yet if I managed to get the A’s.
This week will be filled with lots of homeschooling, cleaning and organizing. I will only have two weeks off before summer semester starts so I have to make the most of it.
Well, I should go get the table cleaned off so I can plan for the schoolwork week.
I have taken my finals and am working on my final draft for my research paper. I have to turn it in on Tuesday. The kids have a chiro visit tomorrow. After which we will be home to do some schoolwork and some cleaning. At some point i need to work on our summer schooling. We are going back to a year round schedule to take some of the stress on all of us. Tomorrow we need to buy our swim passes and register the kids for swim lessons. I am ting a summer class but it is web-based and that is nice to free up my time.
I have finally decided to go through with my name change. I’ve been thinking/talking about doing it for years. My husband went down and filed the paperwork for me on weds. so I have a court date of June 15 in front of a magistrate. At least it is a good reason to go to court!!! I’m very happy and so excited!!! I know many jpeople don’t understand why this is so important to me so I will tell you a story~
Once upon a time a teenager mom was pregnant. The baby was 4 weeks overdue and was induced. This teen really wanted a boy and was going to name him Michael. Well, that boy turned out to be a girl, who was to remain unnamed for 13 days while remaining in the hospital being treated for jaundice. Finally the teen mom decided to just us the feminine version of Michael, with no middle name picked out. Shortly thereafter, the teen mom found out there were 14 other Michelle’s in the nursery at that time.
So this baby Michelle would grow up in a single parent household only to be abused. Told the above story of how she got her name. As well as being told that she had been given up for temporary adoption and lived with parents that loved her only to be taken away and abused. Now all of this might not have been so bad except as a teenager Michelle got pregnant in order to leave the abuse, which was jumping out of the frying pan into the fire. For the next 16 years, she would be abused by her husband’s and continue to be verbally and emotionally abused by her mother.
At 32, she left her current husband, and started a new life. One with a man who would find his way to Christianity and be saved by God. They married, had 4 beautiful children and Michelle eventually went back to college to work towards a degree in psychology. She is still working towards that degree and finally sees light at the end of the tunnel. Next January, she will transfer to a four year college and hopefully be able to graduate in two years.
Michelle remember being 3 years old and hating her name, telling her teen mom that she was changing it when she grew up. So 42 years passes and she realizes that she can change her name. She also realizes that she can be the person that the Lord meant for her to be all along. A person with her own identity, not somebody’s daughter, wife, mother; but her own person. She still has flashbacks of the abuse, and finds it to be painful, but is finally starting to heal. Thanks be to God!!!
So soon that unwanted baby will have a name that she loves and in a couple of years a degree, she has hopes of going to grad school and being a counselor. She dreams of working with other women that have been hurt like herself. Her new name will be Rose Catriona M******. It is fun to be able to pick your own name. There is something incredibly empowering to do something so meaningful even if nobody really understand why or they all think you are crazy.
In case your wondering, yes I know my story was in the third person but it was the only way that I could relate all that pain and sadness and not re-live it too much.
I can say that life is good and the Lord is great!!!
* I’m studying for finals, and working on my final draft.
*boys rooms is 90% done, need a fan, curtains and new outlets/faceplates.
*all the schools books are in
*going to a 6 day school week for the kids
*taking History 1010 during summer semester.
*the ex’s trial is pushed back to June 22, as it stands right now.
*My Psy. Prof. liked my rough draft and thinks I’ve got potential for writing psy. articles.
*need to do some spring cleaning~ next week after finals.
Ok, that is all for now. I’ve got to get back to studying.
I’m a bit swamped at the moment. The boys room is still waiting for the carpet people to get here so we can finish their room. I will be so glad to have them back in their room instead of camped out in the living room.
I’m revising my sentence outline for my research paper. I met with my psy prof. and she complimented me, said I had done a great job and she was proud of me. That was nice, I am hoping to get the revision done and give it to her by monday to see if it is even better with her suggestions.
We are still working on adjusting to having my older girls full time. The ex’s court date was pushed back to May. It will be almost 7 months by then and we are a bit tired of waiting and stressed from the wait as well. Only about 5 more weeks of this semester and I will be more than glad to have it over. It has been a bit harder and more time consuming. I feel like I’m always behind on something.
I really need to get caught up so that I can finish planning out the kids homeschooling for next year. I did write up a few ideas at the homeschooling blog. Then I found and printed out an article on sensory integration from HSLDA and want to read it and see if I need to make any other changes for Ace.
Life is good, although at times I feel alone and at times even invisible. Although I should be used to it as that has been the story much of my life. I guess the stress of my life is catching up with my moods. Ok, well I should get back to work on that outline. Tomorrow I need to read for anthropology and finish my math homework when I’m not so tired. *I know that makes little sense but revising my sentence outline is mostly rearranging what I already wrote into a new format; and requires little thought on my part.
Have a great weekend.
